Updated: Apr 25
What makes my three transcendent visions that are described in Regaining Paradise even more remarkable was that my parents were atheists. To give you an example: when I was nine, dazed and saddened by the death of one of my close relatives, I asked my father, what happens at death? He responded, “This place is all there is, followed by “Dead is dead.”
Yet memorably, at aged ten, after finishing my homework, I kissed my parents good night, went up a flight of steps and entered my bedroom. On entering, these words clearly registered in my mind, “The places on either side of the blinds are very different from each other. I had no idea what this meant. This was the first time in my young life that I heard “voices” of this sort.
The vision experience had begun. I walked to the blinds to close them for the night. But as I looked through the blinds, I saw the night sky filled with stars. I focused on the dark space that was between the stars and was profoundly moved. I realized that I was looking into infinity! There are no walls out there that are limiting. What I was looking into was never-ending.
In the same second, my consciousness self was pulled into the vast never-endingness. I realized that this infiniteness was infinitely powerful and that my parents and I, and all of us ultimately, came from this power. In other words, God and the condition of infinity, are one in the same.
I understood the meaning of the words that entered my mind that had confounded me: the space inside my room is enclosed, while the space beyond it is infinite.
I was led by the transcendent power to experience more wondrous things during this vision. I told no one of these happenings, and had no other visions for forty years.
Forty years later, I had two transcendent visions. In the first vision, I was taken through a series of mind-bending steps, and was guided to barely touch the white light of heaven. The immensity of the unconditional love I felt shocked me into ending the vision. In the second vision, two weeks later, I actually did enter the white light of heaven.
I shared my transcendent experiences with Gregory D. Alles, a former chairman of the Philosophy and Religious Studies Department at Western Maryland College (McDaniel College since 2002). I also shared my experiences with Sister Margaret McKenna, who is an international speaker on non-violence with a PhD in divinity from the University of Pennsylvania. After considering all aspects of my descriptions, both found my experiences credible. The sister called me a “modern- day prophet,” and as a result of Gregory Alles’s review, my experiences were featured in the “Transcendence” section of the Philadelphia Inquirer in an article called “Shedding Light on Visions of the Divine Light.”
Preparing Your Mind State Is the First Step in Realizing the Source of God’s Power
The age-old quest to understand the nature of God and what that tells us about our fundamental nature, which includes what happens after we draw our last breath, has been ongoing for much of human history. Yet if we are to resolve these mysteries, we need to understand how our frame of mind has prevented us from giving this inquiry our all.
Many people who identify themselves with mainstream religions, when asked about the source of God's creative power, may be shocked at such a question and become defensive. That’s because, in a manner of speaking, there’s a dusty, bloodstained file in their minds. This file is filled with the stories of the God of the Old Testament, the One who turned people into pillars of salt and drowned all the people on earth on a whim—with the exception of one family who were righteous to Him. All of these stories feed into our basic superstitious nature.
We may believe that daring to delve into God’s sacred ring of privacy will lead to our suffering God’s wrath. So we tread gingerly on this hallowed ground, and at the first bend in the road, hastily retreat to safety.
To be sure, God has been anthropomorphized over the past several millennia to the extent that we have too often minimized or even distorted God’s infinite power. This is due to the human ego’s need to instill its likeness into the supreme force to make that force seem less threatening and more manageable to suit the individual’s needs. For those reasons, and in the interest of objectivity, rather than subjectivity, I refer to God as “the infinite creative force/power.”
Resolving the Mystery of the Source of God’s Power and Why It Matters
Amazingly, in my vision state at age ten, I clearly understood the source of the infinite creative power. Although this may be difficult to grasp at first, I realized that the condition of infinity was infinitely powerful. And why shouldn't this statement be true. Although this may be mind-bending to the point of bringing pain, understand that the condition of infinity by definition, always was. It's the "uncaused causer," it was never young and is incapable of aging.
In time, I realized that "death" is not the end for us, but the glorious beginning. And that as children of the infinite power, we will travel forever in its vastness, as ever-opening radiant auras that will forever experience the increasing grandeur and glory of its love, along with other noble things for which we have no name.
Understanding the source of God’s power will allow us to realize the magnificence of the infinite creative force. Setting faith aside, coming to terms with this transcendent mystery will empower us because, while creation out of nothingness is fundamentally counterintuitive, it is validated by our conscious sense of first-person awareness that "I am."
If we say that Creation comes from God itself, we are using a god-of-the-gaps argument, which doesn’t advance our understanding of the force that gives us ever-lasting life. On the other hand, if we recognize that Creation is from the condition of infinity, then we’ve added yet another dimension of understanding to the divine force that we call God.
Resolving the divine mystery will leave us in awe of the creative power. We will be awed by the utter magnificence of this power. We will be aware that the love and beauty that resides in our core self are faint reflections of the force/power, a power that wants us to realize our connection to its condition of infinity. This was revealed to me at age ten.
Using Reason to Make the Case about the Condition of Infinity
Blaise Pascal, the seventeenth-century mathematician, physicist, and philosopher, made this observation that is relevant to this discussion about the ultimate cause:
"The supreme function of reason is to show to man that there are things beyond reason."
We tend to believe that by whatever name we call God, whether it is Yahweh, Jehovah, Brahmin, or Allah, is infinite and that God is infinitely creative. We understand that the condition of infinity would include all forces, even those that we call “transcendent” or “divine,” because by definition, nothing can be beyond or above the condition of infinity. Therefore, by reason and deduction, the condition of infinity itself would be infinitely creative.
And to our lasting benefit, we carry its seed of infinity within us as we journey forever into eternity as ever-opening auras. But still, the matter of how all that we are and experience came from the condition of infinity, will remain the divine mystery that carries us into the never-ending future.